Sister showed another interview with Drunvalo Melchizedek this evening:
Although I have usually held a skeptical position towards what he has to say, quite a lot of this interview actually made sense. He described khechari mudra in a pretty interesting way - he described what I haven't found from any widely available yoga webpages or yoga books yet.
Watching it brought me back to the feeling of being late. Throughout this life I have felt like I could have been special but I'm late and that's because now everyone is special just like me. This is ego at works. On the other hand, if there would really be a mass-awakening happening like he's talking about, I should be happy inside out. Now there's a good conflict to solve with meditation.
While meditating, I think I have recognized the feeling of having old friends who have already gone far ahead a long time ago and are waiting for me. And at the same time, I'm still messing around with stuff down here. Also, based on the feeling, I think I could have left a long time ago already but I voluntarily chose not to. Why? I think I answered my own question even though I don't believe the answer yet.
-- Edited by Sussch on Wednesday 9th of February 2011 09:37:37 PM
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Sussch, the fact that you were born into a family like the one you have with a father like the one you have makes me want to agree with what you said about your chosing to come back despite having already been trancedentally aware enough to not have to
or i guess...something like that, lol
-- Edited by FridgeNatious on Wednesday 9th of February 2011 11:29:23 PM
I don't know if anyone has watched part 2, but he mentions something about 3rd eye and other chakras around it, and when they become active seeing a green light all the time. Which is what I am seeing now when I close my eyes. He also mentions seeing a spiral, which is what I saw a few days ago when i woke up, What is going on?
It seems like i have misinterpreted the feeling. There doesn't seem to be a conflict, I just have an expectation of seeing myself in such a conflict.
@Treasure Hunter: Yeah, I noticed that and I wished you would watch the 2. part. I'm glad you did .
@FridgeNatious: I found it mindblowing when sister described how she chose the family. She said she was observing us, thinking whether she would like to be born in this family or not. She said she decided when she saw me.
If I were aware and chose it voluntarily, then I have forgotten about it. Except for a few feelings or images that have popped up, I don't have much of a clue of what I did, what I have set up as my goal for this life and so on.. which I think should be the case when one would voluntarily be reborn. I can't even remember choosing the family like my sister does .. although she said she was reborn involuntarily (she didn't have a choice even though she wasn't quite ready for it).
Anyway, it was an inspiring interview that motivates me for more meditation.
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Thanks for posting the vid Sussch . That is crazy, I just watched it again properly, and that is what I described to you and Higheriam the other day on the live stream b4 you posted the vid , the concentric rings he described I have also seen for a while when focusing on things outside, kind of like ripples when you throw a stone into water, I think maybe the sensation of my third eye turning inside out , was actually it turning forward and opening, I think it may have been the next morning when I woke and saw the spiral.
Also I don't want to damage anyones eyesight, but I have been dabbling with a bit of sungazing when the sun has just risen, and I think this may have contributed to energising the 3rd eye
-- Edited by Treasure Hunter on Thursday 10th of February 2011 08:22:30 PM
-- Edited by Treasure Hunter on Thursday 10th of February 2011 08:29:13 PM
The description of progress on focusing on an object has sparked something, I think. It seems that I have lost focus on some of the feelings I was holding, which has resulted in the recent emotional instabilities. This explains the experiences that I used to call ego-slaps.
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I loose focus sometimes in meditation as well, especially when I intentionally set aside a meditation time. Then I can experience a sort of feel pretentious & uptight resistance. What I do in that case is choose the uncomfortable feeling as the object of focus, rather than fighting it. This usually keeps the energy flowing, but you can also meditate at any moment in life by being fully mindful in the midst of an activity. So, when I'm washing dishes for instance; I allow the dish washing to engulf me into a kind of eternity as though it were the beginning & end of existance or the meaning of life. My current object for absorbtion meditation is the density field. In a way you could say that meditation for object absorbtion(thoughts included), are not any different than PK. At least, it feels the same to me, and it reinforces the feeling that everything I see is a thought I'm holding:)
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Yeah, meditating on feelings is what I usually do in most lectures, while spending time in the lab, walking to school or back home. Sometimes I lose attention over the lecture and discover that I have dozed off into semi-conscious meditation or pk on some random objects.
Over the weeks, some of the feelings that I had considered important had slipped from my attention. Realizing that strengthened the density quite a bit. Walking up and down a bridge or stairs felt pretty weird again.
Thanks
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I find it helpful to practice the mantra or any meditation focal point physical or mental, in the same way that I practice PK. That is to say that the mantra for instance, is an object which my mind holds onto just like the psi_wheel. You may find from this practice that PK & other psi skills improve as well:)
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I don't want to give you a definitive answer to your questions because it's subjective, or I should say that people have different beliefs on the matter. Many yogis say that the mantras are sacred sonds given as gifts by corresponding dieties. You may experience a trance state & clairaudiently recieve a mantra for instance, but so far in my own experience, the difference between made up mantras, newly recieved mantras, and sanskrit mantras, is the degree to which the sound has been charged or how basic to the universe the sound is. Some sounds, like aum & ah, seem much more powerful automatically than anything I ever came up with. Then again it's kind of impossible to be objective about this. Perhaps it's all a matter of what you're able to convince yourself of. It's as I like to say, you are god anyway, so your making it up as you go:)
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