I have lived my life by choosing to exist. The fear and condemnation by the enemy of humanity has caused me to suffer extreme prejudice and disposition to rage. Shame and intolerance, the jealousy, the bitter spite.
For as many as have been in the world that I have bore witness too, I have not found one friend in the humans. Phantasms and Cats became the only beings that tried to love me, and for a short while, it was the purest love.
Can I give a label to myself? Here, I introduce myself, 'weird abyssal abomination parading as flesh'. There is so much to consider. In doing so, we expose our tender spirits to the harsh reality of need, the demons of lust, perversion, and rape. Starvation of our soul, carnal thinking, worshiping men and the fear of men rather than a true and ultimate cosmic spirit. Such things are a loathesome attribution of our mind to the substance of reality. All of us who live know our own soul. Even if others do not believe in it.
So, I come to your forum, having accidentally found it here online. Verging on the great wisdom of Buddha, my struggling against the liching and vampiric telepathy of brutal disgraces has only caused the prophecy of Christ to fulfill itself. I love to praise that Kind King. In my reformed view of him, he demonstrates that self control and the omnipotent love force of the true Cosmic Absolute has power to make a man a god. Praise to Christ, he teaches well.
If we combine our knowledge of religion with that of science, our power in magick and courage to express our very soul power, we gain the benefit of having Psionic Ability. Yet, we choose. If we have enemies in the world, we have chosen to fight them. If we are hindered everyday by compulsion, addiction, obsession, or delusion, it is by our choice, our 'focal selection'. Christ teaches what Buddhism does in experience. We all learn, in saying 'we all learn', knowledge can be a bittersweet poison that craves itself to consume our soul.
I have much to say. Many have accused me of being a raving lunatic. In the local-space reality, I am considered a threat to society, and forcibly medicated against my will by the medical agenda of psychology. Obviously, those of you here would understand why that is. My only option is to master the Buddha, to become it, to transcend as I did in my childhood, and to choose a new life-state.
So much to say to a fresh audience. Some need not to be said. I will, in truth, inform you of the fact that I have developed an extensive theory, going back some eight years in written word, and twenty in experience. This concerns the Phantasy. In that, it enables a shadow of reality. It can arouse incredible emotional energy, and reveals our desire and happiness to our personal self. In it, we can live the same experiences anew, improving our visualizations and creating an entire microcosm within the realm of imagination. As we involve in this forum stuff, I will post the Brainwave Experiment Short Form Report, and perhaps I will be nurtured to have interchange with you about the topic of Phantasy.
There is also the matter of the scientific explanation of existence in terms of a psionic perspective. It is the theory of 'baseline and conscious momentum'. Here, silence, peace, infinite space, eternal time, unlimited mind, and the darkness and light, hot and cold, as one energy, this is the original state of existence. From this, activity arises from the accumulating densities of space and intensities of time. We start to exist in a confusion, violence, and gain conscious momentum towards our inevitable destruction. Baseline is what supports both the quantum and celestial level. It is the complete OM of existence. Sound, thought, sensation, it is all a detraction from baseline. By learning how to meditate and gain back our baseline, we can then exist in that space and moment, or, proceed to manifest existence according to our conscious momentum into the state that we can achieve.
That 'baseline' would be the Cosmic Absolute. Everything which exists, in terms of it all being a detraction, or subtraction, an addition, or a multiplication of that baseline, are the structures which are apparent. Things are only as real as we want them to be. When we give up suffering and corruption, we can submit to that Ultimate One, and there, we are destroyed absolutely. The meaning of this Death is the release into pure spiritual existence, the realm of the Divine. None of this concerns anyone that I have ever known, as many refute, debate, and deny the points which I make. Now, onward.
Science and Religion, including Magick, is the existence of Psionics. Now, I would like to hear your opinion and communication, to see if we truly do have anything in common, or, if we are able to come to a conclusion of specific fact regarding our existence. There is an abundance of things to talk about, and I welcome your feedback and input.
So that is my summary of 'what I'm all about', yet, I can not say who I am. A Chaos Mage, mostly, yet also a victim of his own fear, a simple lack of courage to assert, identify, and embrace his own true soul.
Through the perspective of others we increase our awareness and multidimensionality. Experience unique in its form shared can resonate as a teacher and a student both.
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Omega(the end) + X(the unknown) = Ending Ignorance of the unknown. Truth...knowledge...enlightenment
There is no failure only feedback. Failure is when you stop trying.
Sorry to just drop a post and take off, but I won't be online too much. Internet issues, family trouble, so I can't participate as willingly or immediately as I would like. Perhaps in another month or two!
For now, my focus has been on visualizing white light and trying to will myself to sleep. As a child, I could rip in and out of trance like nuthin! Now, I'm either on, or off. More to say, certainly, till then, peace!
Titorite, you said 'old friend'. Do you know who I am? Did I know you from before? I don't have much time online, but in the meantime, I've thrown my ideas together into one super game. I'm still working on it, but when it's done, you'll hear about it. It's nice to be online, but it does detract from getting any template work done. When you take your idea to the level of an Omniverse, and start to customize your game world or phantasy universe, it can be easy to focus on too many things at once, and burn out, burning for years like a smoldering rock deep in the ground. It's like finding a place that is just cool enough that you don't actually lose heat, and every action in this void of temperature causes you to heat up, with no way to lose the heat. You can suffocate in the Omniverse, top it off with cigs, and you only create Hell.
Here are things that I definitely KNOW--- petting cats, working with sticks, my truck needs fresh oil and a new head cover, phantasy theory of various occult description, insane strategy game that I'm into right now, and generally things expanded and expounded from Final Fantasy.
Here are things that I'm trying to LEARN--- what are the chakra? do we have tractor beams? can we shoot beams? can I fly? I can cast magick, but is that all psionics comes to in it's end? will there be a psionic war fought with powers? do we have intimate energetic relationships with trees, ggrass, and food? does the sky help us connect to God? Is God Jehovah? Is it all as easy as conscious momentum and 'activating my reality'?
Other than that, two days I piddled with tractor beam. Today I fed on reflected light in the cool spring water, and of course, meditated, trying to nourish my brain with sensory signals. A guy who thinks too much doesn't pay attention, he misses what everyone else sees. When you can't stop thinking, you have a parasite sitting there stimulating you to extract your spell matrix. As a chaos mage, you must control your own thought processes, so perfectly if need be that your cells can retain all their charges. The transformation into pure astral reality can be sudden, and we don't always know if we are in the astral, or in the ethereal, or in the cosmic celestial. Beyond that, we focus reality. Our choice to focus anything is part of what we are, and what we are attracting. The practice of Pure Universal Hope is a heart prayer that fortifies all things it inducts into the Universe. Remember, our minds can draw on the omniverse, we experience it as a multiverse, and the result is the activity of the Universe.
Good luck in your PK. If I have any success, I will help with what I can. Thank you, and take care. A message from the Shadow, "Attain peace, then, your Shadow will have power."
